Sunday, February 24, 2013


pretty print with a great quote via 

Today was my last Sunday in my calling as the primary president.  It was a hard Sunday looking into the faces I've grown to love and realizing that I won't be spending my Sundays with them.  It was harder to look in the faces of my own kids.  All of those children are amazing, but to be there with my own and to watch their faith grow and hear them sing has been a gift.

I felt it coming the start of January.  Quiet whisperings to enjoy the time I had in my calling, others helping me think about life with my family without a busy calling, all preparing me for what was to come.  But I'm still left in some ways wondering what's next.

The beauty of it all was being able to go back to the knowledge I've had all along- that Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us- and a plan for me.  I'm excited to figure out what is next.  I'm excited to do things I haven't done for the last almost 5 years that I've been in a presidency (first Relief Society and then Primary).  That quilt that I started ages ago?  I'm planning to get back to that.  The books that have piled up on my nightstand?  I might have time to work on that pile.  And that running that I've been trying to increase?  I think I might just make it happen!

More than anything I'm excited for the increased time with my own children.  I don't have any week night meetings to go to.  I don't have frantic Sundays.  I don't have any lessons to prepare.  I won't be able to stand it for long, but as long as it lasts I'm going to attempt to enjoy it.  I'm going to plan more meaningful family home evenings.  I'm going to increase my one-on-one time with my kids.  I'm going to read more books with them and dance around the house and play trains and legos and polly pockets and tend to the needs of my home and my family without long to-do lists hanging over my head of non-home-related tasks.

And I'm going to come back to this list in the moments I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.  Bittersweet, indeed.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Happy Moments

image via Jessica Haderlie

The past few weeks have been exhausting.  I've experienced a lot of growth, but there have been growing pains along the way.  There is more to share, but I'm a little too tired to process everything that's happened right now and write about it.

At the end of the day, I can say I'm content.  I know that I'm loved.  I am blessed with a husband who adores me, even when I'm not the best wife.  I'm blessed with children who snuggle up, even when I'm not the best mom.  I'm blessed with a Heavenly Father who is completely aware of who I am, who knows me better than I know myself, and who has a plan for me.  I can't think of a more beautiful love than that.

Over the weekend we had family pictures done.  I hadn't gotten serious about family pictures since my dear friend Melissa moved, but after 8 months I decided I needed some Nellie on my walls and in our family pictures.

Enter Jessica and an amazing family session. I can't tell you too many times how much I love having our pictures done at home.  My kids feel, well, at home.  There's so much less stress than trying to corral them in the middle of a field or mountain or other pretty place.  I love these pictures that capture us in various stages within our own walls.  There are few things more beautiful to me than these happy moments at home captured forever.

These happy moments fill my days.  They make all of the growing pains and the life lessons and the hard things balance out.  I can't reflect on these moments and not appreciate that the scales are tipped in my favor, that the good always outweighs the bad, that I have more than I could ever ask for.

Thank you, Jessica, for sharing your talent with our family.  The link above is to the preview- I can't wait to share more!  

Monday, February 11, 2013


Last week was one of those times I felt like I'd lived every day twice.  Over Christmas break Charlie started potty-training.  We did a bit of starting and stopping because I wanted it to be more of his idea, and the first part of January proved to be just that.  He ended up with a week of potty perfection and I considered him trained.  But then he started having bladder issues.  He would hold it all day long and then have panic attacks at 9 pm because he was about to explode.  I chalked it up to some sort of potty-training induced urine retention, went over it with the doctor at his 3-year check-up, and moved on.  Things got a little better and then he went for almost 10 days without urinating during the day.  I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Last Tuesday he began to seem more off throughout the day, but I thought maybe he was coming down with the strep throat that Addie and Sam had both had the week before.  Around dinner time he was writhing in pain, screaming, and looking at me with panicked eyes as he cried for help and told me we needed to go to the doctor.  I knew he was right, so we loaded up to head to the hospital.  That was after the husband had gone to work at 1 am the night before and returned home around 4 pm.  He ended up coming with me and I worried about my semi-sick, sleep-deprived husband and my really sick son.  An x-ray confirmed that his rectum and large intestine were completely full of stool, and you could have knocked me over with a feather.  He'd still been having bowel movements everyday, even in the middle of all of this urine retention, so I had no expectations of stool retention.

Since then things have been fun, and when I say fun, I really mean not fun.  How does one go about cleaning out a 3 year old?  Is it an immediate process or should we use a gradual approach? I got various answers from the ER doctor and nurses, the nurses on call at my doctor's office, and even my pediatrician's nurse.  We spent two days in panic mode with suppositories and magnesium citrate and talk of enemas until a visit with the pediatrician calmed everything down and we started treating from the top down instead of the bottom up.  Slowly things have started happening and the pressure on his bladder has lessened so he can urinate during the day without as much pain.  And last night from 1-2 am I spent the hour changing a string of diapers finally ending in a grand finale of a code brown.  The husband changed the sheets, I bathed Charlie, and we finally all plopped our exhausted selves back in bed.

He still complains of his stomach hurting.  He's still not totally back to normal.  But we're working on it.  I would say this is definitely in the top 3 most difficult parenting challenges I've come across so far.  I know one day I will want to trade teenage problems for pooping problems any day, but right now, these pooping problems really stink.  Literally.  Luckily we're starting to get to the bottom of things.  Literally.  I'm sorry, I can't help myself.  And there you have it, way more than you asked for and an explanation for why I've fallen off the earth.  I'm working on coming back.

Friday, February 1, 2013

A list for the weekend

Adorable print via Sarah Jane.  I love it!  

Happy February!  Happy Friday!  The sky is blue this morning and it's amazing how I feel a million percent happier when I'm not surrounded by gray.

Our weekend agenda includes a baptism for a special friend, a birthday party for Mr. Sam (even though Addie now has strep, she won't be contagious by party time, so we're planning to seclude her, disinfect, and hope for the best), serious cooking/double meal preparation so I can take some freezer goodies to a friend, and as many house projects as I can cram in before the husband has to go to work Saturday night.  I thought I'd share a few things I'm loving lately to head into the weekend.

-Lenka.  This album is on repeat.  Everything at Once and Everything's Ok are two of my faves, but her music is so fun and happy, just what I need mid-winter.

-This post resonated with me on so many levels.  I worry in the same way.  I'm trying to learn not to worry and just focus on loving exactly like the author talks about.  I am learning and growing and worrying a little less.  I am definitely a work in progress!

-My love for Sarah Jane continues with the start of her printable inspirational prints.  You all know this is right up my alley.  I love a good inspirational print.  Can't wait for more!

-I watched this earlier this week and cried grateful tears and immediately sent my husband an email thanking him for being him.  I am also grateful for my Heavenly Father.

Happy Weekend.  So excited for this month of love!  And almost the 2 year anniversary of Bee!