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This year is a year full of milestones. During the summer within less than a two month time frame we'll welcome our 4th baby, I'll turn 30, and then the husband and I will celebrate 10 years of marriage. Thinking about what the summer holds I feel excited and giddy and satisfied all rolled into one. I recognize that although my life is far from perfect, it is blessed.
I think all of these upcoming celebrations are part of why I've had so many thoughts about goals this year. A decade birthday brings out the contemplation and has made me think about what I've actually accomplished in the past 30 years. Am I who I want to be? Am I working to improve? Am I doing what matters?
I've been doing a lot of reading about goals and self-improvement and change (maybe I'll share a few of my favorites while we're on the subject this week), and I haven't been able to close one of the tabs on my web browser for a talk entitled "Do Things That Make a Difference". While the content is inspiring, the title is what really draws me in. I'm pretty sure I need a poster so I can have this constant reminder. Staring down the barrel of 30 and 10 years and my 4th child, that is really all I want to do- to do things that make a difference.
I want to raise my children in an intentional and dedicated way that will make a difference in their lives. I want to know them personally and give them what they need individually to grow and develop and thrive. I want to love my husband in a way that fills him with contentment and confidence. I want us to spend our time together growing and learning and having fun. I want to care for him in a way that makes a difference. I want to be mindful of caring for myself, both body and spirit, and I don't want to feel guilty in doing so. I want to continue to improve and change and evolve and choose goals that will make a difference in who I become. I want to spend my time in ways that are meaningful- ways that will make a difference. I want to create a home- a place of peace and happiness and laughter and joy for family and friends to be. I want to reach out to those around me and to lift and strengthen and love. I want to be a good friend. I want to be a disciple and I want my life to be a reflection of my desire to follow my Savior. I want to keep writing and tell my story and share my lessons learned, even for an audience of one- myself. I want my words to someday make a difference for my children.
As I've gotten older I've realized what a difference a year can make. This year has many things on the calendar poised to make it incredible, and I can't wait! Although I am grateful and content with where things are right now, I hope by the end of it I can say that I am different, that a few more of my rough edges have become smooth and that I have changed for the better.